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June 08 *sigh*Crushed again Again and again My heart is broken But I never learn I wear my heart on sleeve So eager to love But am never loved Always overlooked, always forgotten I'm always by your side Always the friend, always the confidante never the lover, never loved But I've never given up hope on love Hoping that I'd find someone But that someone always ends up the same Always the same And I never learn Always hoping, always praying for something that never could be Always wanting something that will never be within my reach And always, always have my heart broken I never learn I wear my heart on my sleeve So eager to love But am never loved Always overlooked, always forgotten I never gave up hope for love But maybe love has given up hope on me Please see me Don't overlook me, don't forget me May 17 Oh Gosh!!!!I completely forgot about this blog LOL. Well I've got sooooo much to update on. But where do I start? okay, well in '08, I quit my job because it was far to much for me to do with full time work and having to juggle Ryley, my now ex Jay and all the court stuff. I moved out to Geelong and I'm loving it. It's like having a city life combined with country life. I LOVE IT!!!! I met, my now housemate, Tek (with whom I will gladly admit that I am in love with :P) went up to Sydney to visit him a few times (and had loads of adult fun ;P)....And that's pretty much the highlights of '08 for me lol Oh and I started a course to become a social worker which I have almost finished. Lately, I've been doing some work placements, Ryley's started Kinder and is loving it so very much, life here is pretty busy around here. I've got 3 cats now (don't ask lol) Tek's been busy with work and rehearsals and all. We pretty much do everything together lol That's it really. Nothing really eventful happened lol Oh well other than i hod to back to court of Jaden showed up here *rolls eyes* I just hope it's all over now. Oh yeah! Ryley decided to stuff Play Dough in his ears on Thursday....I was frantic and panicky, rushed him to the doc's and then we found out that he's for ear infections with which I need to apply ear drops every 3-4 hours *sighes* October 03 I know...I knowIt's been ages since I've been online and updated this site. Well, what do you expect?!?!
I'm working full time now and have to juggle Ryley and childcare, and everything else in between.
*sigh*
I'm really enjoying work though. I made a new friend (Heck, she's my only firend atm....sad isn't it?) Her name's Gianetta and she's really cool. And since she's a single mum herself she can sympathise about my situation. So she helps me out alot and I cannot tell you how gratefull I am!!!
Lesse, what else has been happening in my life?
Nuthin much actually, all i've been doin' is work, sleep, eat and then some more work. I barely have anytime for my son! Which is why I cherish our weekends together even more.
Oh! I've been back to court regarding the custody of my lil boy. My ex and his family will be spending every tuesday with Ryley for the next month or two and after that Ryley will be sleeping over at his dad's. I have to admit that I am very scared for Ryley. I just hope he copes with it all. It was a big step for him to see his dad again during supervised contacts and that was only for 2 hours! But now Ryley will spending 8 hours and more with that side of the family.
I do want Ryley to be a part of them but at the same time I'm dreading the time when Ryley will say "Why doesn't dad love me? Why can't I live with my dad? etc etc"....Really not looking forward to it.
I just hope everything goes well with him.
And news from my side of the family, my mom's having a lot of financial problems putting my sister through high school so she's asking me to ask my dad for money. (Confused yet?) And my dad doesn't really want to be involved in her problems, despite the fact that my sis ter is his daughter! *sigh* I hate being the pig in the middle like this. But what can I do? I want my sister to get an education but I don't have the money to help her. My dad does..sort of, but he's more worried about his wife being pissed off at him and not putting out for him coz he's helping his OWN DAUGHTER and not giving her kids any of the money....Her adult children! Compared to my 15 y.o sister.
And my dad won't listen to anyone else but my step mum. It's killin me!
My sister needs the education but does my dad cares..maybe depends on how his wife's feeling.
Does this makes any sense to any of you? (I do realise that my dad is very much controlled by his wife and still doesn't want to admit it, i know!)
August 23 First Day of WorkOk....
First of all, I started the day pretty badly. I slept in. So me, Jay and Ryley were scrambling about trying to get ready. That alone was exhausting in it's self. *sigh*
Anyway, I got the bus stop on time and got to work on time too. Coz I was power walking all the way to work from the bus stop.
When I got to work:
And now I'm just tired from being up all day I think I might get an early night....*yawn*
Nite ev'ryone! August 20 I GOT A JOB! WOOO HOOO!!!I am dancing on air atm. wanna know why?
Coz I got a job!
I really felt like hugging my *ahem* boss. Though I don't think his wife would've liked that. lol I'll be doing a lot of things. It's for a steel fabrication company here in vic. It's located not too far from me, takes me only 20 mins to get there by bus, so really convenient since i haven't got my license just yet. I'll be doing alot of office admin work, you know the organising files and incoming mail, making brochures, etc etc. But i'll also be their receptionist and be working from time to time as a PA to my boss. I'll only be getting $15 p/h for the first 3 probational months but it may increase after that. I AM SO STOKED!!!!!! I'm kinda sad that i'll have to put ryley into child care full time but I am doing this for him too. So hopefully, this job will be permanent. Oh, and I START THIS THURSDAY!!!! I went to the interview with my Job Network Provider's recruitment manager and he told my boss that I wasn't wearing anything very business like, coz i thought i was only there for a few minutes (for my Job Network touch base appt.) Anyway, my boss said "don't worry about it, I judges them by personality". Well, looks like he really liked me coz he hired me on the spot! did I mention that I AM SOOOO STOKED? |
*impersonating Apu from the Simpsons* - Hope I don't get sued for copy rights!!!
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